To the love of my life...

15 December 2018 12:47 am

It took me two long years to finally see the light in a tunnel that was so dark, I did not even know where or how I would escape. I have been beating up myself for all the pain that I have been feeling along the way. I thought I was hopeless. I thought love was hopeless. I built my walls and my heart turned as hard as a rock. Cliché as it sounds but time really heals all wounds. The amount of time I had was apportioned for self-love, family, friends, and other things that I never realized were important for my growth. I have waited so long to write something that I am euphoric about. Thank God you came — my total game changer. My love, you are the plot twist that was meant for me. It was a leap of faith to give love another chance. I did not know what's in store for me but I gambled and dove into love, one more time. I became cynical with relationships but when I met you, I knew taking the risk will be worth it. You let me feel all those things that I wanted to feel again, in fact, you exceeded my expectations. People would see me having this strong personality but you know how emotionally sensitive I can be, given my history. That is why you solicitously hold my heart like a fragile piece of expensive glass. I never asked you anything but you always willingly do everything to make me feel secured, assured, loved, and appreciated. And I wasn't wrong. I never believed in the pot of gold at the end of rainbows until I met you. You are a single snowflake in a blizzard. It is in your presence that I feel at peace. It’s where everything makes so much sense. It's in you who makes me feel physically and emotionally safe in this unsafe world. We're no longer kids and I know that love will not always be about sparks and butterflies. Love will not always mean hugs, kisses, or holding hands. Neither it will always be about gifts and surprises nor rainbows and unicorn. But love will always be me choosing you over our fights, over my pride. You will always be my cherry-pick. You will always be my favorite. You will always be my day one. And if you ever find yourself second-guessing, I want you to know that I will always choose you. I will choose you over and over again. I will choose you without a doubt, without hesitation, without fear, and with every beat of my heart. I will never stop choosing you because I love you always, in all ways. Happy monthsary and Merry Christmas, my love.